I know it can't be just me who has this addiction. It feels like one of those 24 hour bugs that never wants to leave. Just when I think I am satisfied I see a new video, or a blog post, or I look on eBay for pretty things and I am instantly drawn back in again. It starts at 6 am and doesn't stop till I am in bed around Midnight. It has taken over my life, but don't be mistaken [I do the things on my list of things to do as well] I just have swapped some other hobbies with this one for the time being. So now instead of spending time buying books, and spamming book tube I am somewhat utilizing the craft and stationary I use while I spend copious hours on the internet learning and being inspired by the Filofax community.
One of the biggest things I believe it had allowed me to do is to dream. I can keep my dreams alive majority of the time [ unless I am asleep and even then I have fantastical dreams] and I do this my writing, planning, documenting and constantly learning about how to organize my time, my life and my passions using my Filofax. In that sense is there a better way to spend my time? Probably in some circumstances, but who wants to be cleaning a house all day when you can be planning to clean a house over a week and developing a system that enables more time to do the things you like. But its not only the responsibilities I have organised and the time I have freed up that makes this so addicting, it has enabled me to really map out what I would like my future to look like and I am constantly getting ideas on how to expand that.
I am unemployed. I have been searching for a job for the better half of three years. I have had many jobs, most of them lasting upwards of a month in total. I have PTSD and a whole other range of things that lead me to be labelled under many eyes as disabled. However it has never hindered me in actually doing what I want with my life, especially now. I have dreams, aspirations and big ones too. I was taught from a young age I that I should always dream BIG and so I have. Growing up and getting out into the real world taught me that not all of us believe that or live that, but I do and I want to inspire other people to do so too.
One of my biggest dreams was to have a Filofax and I am so blessed to have one and possibly even two in the near future. When I reached that milestone I began to look outwards and inwards to all the resources, communities, groups, shops and merchandise that could allow me to really ask myself the important question, and its one of those big ones. What are my dreams?
When I sat down with my Filofax and with my laptop and started exploring my life I found that after just one week with my Filofax I was able to take a peek at my life at a glance and from that I realized that damn I can dream Big and that is the beauty of life. To me it has always been about following my bliss. I also realized in these pages, by flicking through and sharing them with so many people that I was already on my way to living that dream. I am a entrepreneur at heart with many ideas and loads of inspiration and I am finally starting to take the steps I need to in order to start my own business and that is beyond exciting. It makes my heart soar and even better it makes me cry tears of joy.
For all the time wasted thinking I couldn't and pushing those ideas away. I have found a place to call home in a planner that has every aspect of my life in it and I am now able to put all of them out there into the world. I a way that even as an avid journal writer I could never have anticipated. So at the end of the day when my computer is off and Grace is all snapped shut and ready for me to delve into tomorrow I can certainly sleep easier knowing I am on the right track and that what might be an expense purchase to some people was a small price to pay in my eyes for the positive changes and success that is about to blossom and that will allow me to grow personally and professionally in more ways than imaginable.
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